This is going to be one of my more informal blog posts as I prepare to graduate and reflect on my time at Uni. I want to connect a lesson I've learned to Benji's ideology of "the other boy," based off the prompt we received earlier this quarter. I think that Benji tries to separate himself so much from the younger version of himself because he's reminded of the time that him and his brother were neglected. I also think that some part of him might feel like a failure because he was trying so hard at the time to protect him and his brother from going shooting in the first place. But then his brother found a way around it and that'a how the whole mess started. All resulting in Benji getting hurt. This is an interesting aspect to explore but I really want to focus on why he tries so hard and yet fails to separate himself. I think the reason why Benji can't truly separate himself from the younger version of him is because he quite literally still has a part of
This one is going to be a bit of a rant, and while I may be a little harsh on Jason it is something in the book that is starting to annoy me a bit. We've all been his age at some point, and had the time in our lives where we felt the need to fit in or impress everyone. But man has he let this vision in his head absolutely consume him. I genuinely feel like he's not even living his life, he's surviving, going through the motions. And it made me equally frustrated and sad when he was about to tell his mom what was going on but then didn't. Despite my annoyance with the idea of fitting in consuming his brain, I do still feel bad for the kid. Throughout multiple scenes we see that he doesn't even really feel at home in his own house. He still has to preform for his dad when it comes to his stutter. And in the more recent chapters, seeing how brutally he got bullied definitely infuriated me. I think I'm just gonna go ahead and say I really don't like this book. I